Why all at once?

Why does so much go wrong in people's lives at one time? Why why why?

I don't feel like I used to feel not too long ago. And as each day goes on...I feel worse. I hate this feeling, I haven't felt this way in over a year...and now? The saddest part is my family is fucking stupid and family should be able to tell something is wrong since they see me all the time..right?
I don't know how many times I told my brother I was going to punch/choke/whatever him today..He's just getting on my fucking nerves every five minutes being an annoying fucker. I took THREE walks today because I couldn't stand being home with him!! And all my walks were longer then normal....
I'm so tired right now because I haven't been able to sleep... I'm always hungry because I barely eat... Why can't I push this under the rug and forget about it?? Why is this so hard to ignore? I've done it before...I've had other people stop talking to me..and I was able to just shurg it away! Why is this different? I dunno.. meh. I guess I am just a bad person and this is Karma's way of getting back at me...
On top of that, my brother's dad sent me another letter...I hate when he sends me letters...I always get all upset (even if I don't read the letter) because I don't want that prick in my life!! He's not my dad, he needs to STOP...for serious. I told my mom to tell him...arg.
Also, trying to find another job...way stressful.. I have like no money..well that's a lie, i have money but I'm saving it up so I have no spending money really...
I really neeeeeeeed to leave Wisconsin...Neeeeeed to get away from everyone...Neeed out need out need fucking out. That's too fucking bad though because I don't have the money to do that! Lame... I feel lame.