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so, i had a birthday... above are the flowers I got from my mom and doug. below is the giant cookie i got.
one day i went to the park because it was nice out. these birds seriously followed me home, as well as around the park. bad luck??
The giant spider friend i made in my bathroom. it freaked me out, and spiders don't normally do that... 
The voodoo guy from Beetlejuice shrunk my head. it's so sad... but i guess that's what I get for trying to swap numbers... WAHT??? he was number 3...
Glasses can be sexy. Reading is sexy. I can read. I wear glasses. I'm sexy. Rawr. :)
I do it for my fans. Duh... 
Another picture of the spider...laaaaaah
I just wanted to share some random, recent photographs from my current life. :)

Batman makes me look fat. 

The spider freaked me out so much, but i was still intrigued by it.  

But, i also almost passed out when I made my attempt to catch it.

My step sister had to do it for me. 

Then I was finally able to shower hahahaha. 

I'm pretty sure this weekend went way too fast for how bored I was. :-/

Things that will make my bday sad:

Snow

Getting 15 cents worth of crap talk from my brothers' dad in the birthday card my brother, Colin, is sending me. 

The second one makes me want to cry just thinking about it. I hate him, but he doesn't seem to understand I've ignored his attempts to get in my life for a reason. I know I can't stop my brothers from letting him back in their lives. I know I can't stop my mom from talking to him. I don't understand WHY she does though, he hurt her the most. 

I think, sometimes when I cry, I cry for her, mostly. :`(  

I also cry because I don't want my brothers turning out like him. :-(

I wish my mom never met him, as much as I love my family on my brothers' side, and my brothers... sometimes, it just gets too painful to be reminded of what he did and who he is. 

list of randomness.

haha. I love how someone I met a few years ago was trying to get my phone number, but I wouldn't give it to him...but someone I met for the first time Saturday night has my phone number. 

I love listening to the Killers. 

I love how my school in in Colorado. 

I love how much sense a certain friend of mine makes sometimes. (I hate it, sometimes.)

I love how people have questioned my trust in above mentioned friend's opinions/advise. 

I love how the above mention friend is the only one who really has ever given me any actual GOOD advise. 

I think my cat has a bladder infection or something.

I am happy tomorrow is Thursday. 

I love boys. :) :)

I also hate boys. >:[

I'm going to kidnap Brandon Flowers and keep him in my room. He'll sing to me, for food. 

:D

I had a 20$ bill but don't know where it went. :(

I need to charge my phone tonight.

 

I want to go to bed.

I need stuff to do during the weekend.

I need to pee, right now. 

I want a Nintendo DS, but mostly I just want to play pokemon right now. LOL.

By that last one, I mean Silver or Gold (or the other one with the same map, but i don't remember the color)

This is enough. 

I still love listening to The Killers. 

From now on I'm going to ask myself... "What the fuck does Amanda want right NOW? What will make her happy right NOW?" and make choices off of however I answer that question.

This could end up ending in disaster. But I'll be happy, and that's what really matters, right?

Also, wearing sunglasses makes me feel cooler. Even though my sunglasses are from the 90's.

note to self:

Next time a guy asks me if I'm single, say "no," even when it's not true. Oi. Last night was cool though.

And And And... I met Erik! Which I wasn't expecting, so when I saw him, I was a touch confused and yelled his name. LMAO. I've never done that before...and he was all "wtf? do i know you?" It was priceless. :D I'm just a little sad, I forgot my camera, so I don't have a picture with him. :(

LOL! This has been a draft for a long long LONG time. This is from St. Patrick's Day a couple years ago!! I am now NOT single, and I've met Erik a second time. Haha!

this is my cousin, lazuli. He is the cutest baby i've ever seen... I don't like children, but I would steal him for a while, if I could. He's almost two.

I hope, if I accidently have a child, it's a boy, and I hope it's as good looking, if not more, than him. 

Music

Music makes me really happy. 

I just wish I had more I could dance to. If you read this, and there's an artist, or song, you really like to dance to, tell me. 

Please, and Thank you.

I like music of all walks of life.  So I guess, if you like something I might not have heard about, tell me that, too. 

just kidding. i figure out this "follow" thing... I never scrolled down passed the part where it tells me how to do it.

Sometimes, I am dumb.

crazy

If you like weird movies, then I recommend "Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind" 

It's a romance story, but it's totally awesome. Just so you know. I was confused at first, but caught on really fast to what was going on. 

Also, I can't seem to figure me out.. Like, some people think I'm so nice, and when they tell me this I just cannot help but mock them, and think to myself  "God, people are dumb, I'm not as nice as they think I am.."  but then when people think I'm kind of mean I just think to myself "well that hurts, I'm not that mean..."

I really want to ask people if I'm a mean person. I don't know. I'm not usually mean out loud, like I think I said last time. Just, sometimes, people drive me crazy. I don't understand people. People don't understand me. How can people understand me, to be honest... I don't understand me. I'm so weird. I'm selective. I'm picky. I'm funny. I'm sarcastic.

You know what, I think a lot of people think I'm mean because I'm so sarcastic to them.  And I like to kid around, but in a mean way. I don't do it on purpose. I don't want to hurt people's feelings. I don't want to seem rude.  I have been thinking about this kind of stuff all since I've been awake, except not really because I've watched 2 movies since I've been awake, but between movies I thought of this stuff. 

Also, I don't get this "follow" thing on here, I guess I'm just REALLY bad at following directions, or I'm blind. 

That's about all. But one last thing, lol. It is March!!!! :) 24 days until My birthday, and I still don't know what's going on. Mkay. Now that's all.