Things that will make my bday sad:

Snow

Getting 15 cents worth of crap talk from my brothers' dad in the birthday card my brother, Colin, is sending me. 

The second one makes me want to cry just thinking about it. I hate him, but he doesn't seem to understand I've ignored his attempts to get in my life for a reason. I know I can't stop my brothers from letting him back in their lives. I know I can't stop my mom from talking to him. I don't understand WHY she does though, he hurt her the most. 

I think, sometimes when I cry, I cry for her, mostly. :`(  

I also cry because I don't want my brothers turning out like him. :-(

I wish my mom never met him, as much as I love my family on my brothers' side, and my brothers... sometimes, it just gets too painful to be reminded of what he did and who he is.