i was on myspace

I was on myspace, keeping myself awake for a while so I am not going to bed so early. and there was a question, pretty typical actually..

"Do you regret anything?"

Well that got me thinking a little bit. What's the point of "regretting" what you can't change? I mean, why even think about something you can't change. It's done, and over with.... 

I can't go back in time and be a different person. I can't be an "un-bitch" (haha) to people. the only thing I think I can do now is to be more nice to the people I happen to come across in the future. I can let go of the passed and reshape myself for the future. (if i can figure out how) But I cannot go back in time (nor would I really want to). 

Along the same lines, it's dumb to always think "What if this happened this way instead of that way?"  who cares. I can't change it. I can't go back in time and make sure my mom never ends up with *him*. I can't go back in time and stop my mom from moving us to Milwaukee. I can't go back in time to seventh grade and change some things there. I can't change things from high school I can't change things between high school and now. And quite frankly, for the most part, I like how things have turned out in the long run. 

I'm not saying everything second for second was good. And I'm not saying right now in my life is  going just peachy, but in the long run thing have been working out. It's just waiting for the next section of "the long run" to be completed.  But that's just life...I guess. 

You can't really think too much about how little things will make your "long run" turn out, either. You'll end up wasting time. Talking about this all is sort of wasting time. But at this time it's kind of what I'm trying to do. I don't want to go to bed yet, so I'm wasting time until it's late enough where I won't wake up at 2 in the morning.

You should sign up for last.fm and add me... 

http://www.last.fm/user/AmandaSkaja

I way way like the song I am currently listening to. Affirmation by Savage Garden. It's good.

Well, actually I'm listening to my iTunes library in alphabetical order by song name, but that's the current song. 

I mad one cent off having ads on my blog. hahaha. (All that music talk was just me trying to figure out what else it was I had to mention.)

Finally. I had the blog for a long while now. And now blogger is getting popular, I guess, so people are actually reading my blog. At least Sarah. hah. 

Well, I dunno. I should be going to bed. I get a lot more done at my job when I have had a good night of rest...